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31 maggio Sunny TelfordBack 'ere! Oh joy! Oh blyss. Had a beer and a meal with Bot in Wolves! Phil is currently out with the lass so am pretty much alone in the house.
Pmpl.. "your perfect flesh.. impervious to anything fungle" what a line! Crash Test Dummies!
Isnt really much to say. Bored. Broke (that goes without saying). Tired for no reason.
Shell's off galavanting in cornwall. Sent her the words to Stalks of last years fruit cos she gettin a bit silly again.
Heard nothing from Jo, nor Sian, so dont know if they've decided to visit a'n'e again yet.
Couldnt help countess bartelli get tickets to fallout boy.
Umm Thats about it.
Oh... and they've altered the code fo my font colour!! lmao!! 30 maggio TiredWell took a few days out for some me time.. so i thought, headed out of telford and hoped for some R n R. But, after about 5 hours kip outta 72 i'm heading home to catch up on sleep before i go a step further down the loony road! Totally shattered and broke, not budgeted for being home by Tuesday so Wed n Thursday so dinner gonna prove interesting! lol As in fact will getting to work! But hey ho... at least i know i can walk it if needs be! Just need to charge the ole mp3 dohicky!
Something has to give sooner rather than later. I'm getting frustrated again. No money, no female companion of the affectionate kind, and no hours at work to make me tired so i can kip through being bored. The extra hours are priority. Need to up my income so i can be more independant from the house. Need my own pc but the guy who was giving me one... a pc i mean... seems to have forgotten about it. Plus extra hours makes a lass not viable.. lol which in turn saves money!
All the beer's gone!!! 80 cans we had about 2 weeks back! I hardly touched it lol. Phil n Richard musta had a few good nights! Need a good night out but on what i earn... be lucky! I'd like to hit the Gifford in Wolves again on a fri or sat, but still dont know how i'd deal with Deb, and the urge to vomit. Still no phone guarentee forthcoming. How petty is that?!
Glenda's Sapphire's gone... lol awwww. She's sent a cracking set of Jack pics over but i need software to edit em n splice em together.. which i dont as yet have. May have to email them out to people. See if they can sort em.
Ok.. eyes hurting lots now! Laters! 29 maggio Nappy Time .. the sequelWell.. seems Mike has had a wee one too! Congrats! Must be something in the air! Or rather there was something about 9 months ago. Not noticed bot getting bigger tho so..... lmao! hehehe.
Moving swiftly on, Sian managed to attack my arm with a fridge door n had left it bruised internAli. Having today off, so not working til thrusday. Mildly concerned that Shell may well get my shifts there but who knows. I need something else anyway as i really struggling to survive on the money which is coming in. But, with still no bank etc... ah i should beused to i by now, but im still kinda tired of surviving, rather than living. 27 maggio Brassic!Completely broke... all the shifts i thought i would be getting extra over the bank hols have been grabbed by someone else. Gonna be a verra verra quiet Ali for a bit. So.. yer sapphire gonna have to wait Glenda lol!!!
Need some photo/pic editing stuff... new pic of Jack is brilliant, but sent in 3 bits, of which one part is a slightly diff size to the other two, so cannot splice them together with just paint! 24 maggio Nappy TimeCongrats to Wayne n Elain for the birth of Lily-May! Good Arrows Matey!!
Out for a drink with Sian after my shift today! Hope she's ok! Possibly give Jo her cd today too! That should prove entertaining, especially the last track! heheh. In for a shock, me thinks.
Found another song... Tori Amos - Lovesong (cover version of The Cure's song so i'm told). Impressed! Bit different to SOAD but hey, variety is the spice of life.
Su's wee one out of hospital and back to usual self! Oddest, and shortest, case of gasterentoritus i've ever heard of! Gotta love Doc's!
Nice to see uk summer still the same as ever. Wet n Windy! Oh.. and beware of random friend adds on MySpace.. grrrr trojan dl'rs on their homepage... mutter mutter grumble, took almost 30 seconds to get rid!! Silly bugger. Should really report it but cannay be bothered.
This being single milarkey is a bit weird. Especially when Phil's doing his ducks arse in un-oiled water in the next room... squeek oooh.. squeek ahhh! Need the love of a good woman, or the loving of a bad one!! Glenda made me chuckle... sending pics of sapphire rings to me, cos she's had Jack, n boy means i have to buy her a sapphire.. at least.. thats what she tells me! heheh.
Eyes welded together.. guess who forgot to open the window. Like pissholes in the snow seems the best description. Central heating should be banned! Have to spent the next few hours squinting at the world.
So.. to shave or not to shave... ah the agony of choice! In the style of batman, i'll leave you with that cliffhanger...
Whats good looking and doesnt punctuate 22 maggio YawnyWell tis stupid oclock... ie early, and i'm at Su's aftter about 2 hours sleep. Work later, should be fun... yawwwwwwn! One of her wee ones has gas ter rent her eye test and has wound up in the oskital with silly temperature.
May be having a couple of days out of Welly/telf so that cant be bad. Broke.. but will survive. Be nice to relax. Extra job in another pub is no longer available so aint gonna be getting the suplimental income. Not impressed. Need more money... and definately need a good night out. Not had a real beer for ages. 17 maggio Aberdeen Shirt!Growls!! Another one on ebay! Signed tho! I dont want a signed one... lol i just want the normal jvc one!! Pants!Well, im much disappointed. The Radiohead gig was pretty grim if you didnt know the songs. The vocals were completely incomprehensable. This is a band who were voted best in the world 3 years running, and yet they cant set up a mic properly. It was the same on the glast gig which was splattered over the tv. I felt sorry for Ju, having gone out of her way to sort this and it turned into such a dissapointment. I think there were 4 songs i knew, maybe only 3.
I suppose i can say i've seen them, but much like the Mission gig, i know damn fine were i to have paid for it i would have been extreemly angry. I almost sound old now, but it wasnt that it was too loud, etc.. there was just no clarity to the vocals, so unless you knew the songs, it was basically an instumental concert with some curious gutteral noises from the guy at the front.
Had a couple of pints in the jolly gif! No Deb, which was good i guess. Suppose one day i will have to face her. Now i'm readying myself for the footy! Arsenal must win... it is their destiny lol! Use the force etc etc!
Ok im rambling! Oh, and whoevers using my yahoo station n rating pap music... bloody stop it lol! Arrggg! its playing scritty politti!! 16 maggio RadioheadWhoooo hooooo! Guess who's going to Radiohead tonight! If they play Fake Plastic Trees i'll be in tears probably! lol. Am made up. Until this morning i was told there was no guest list... and then got a call from Ju saying "We shall go to the ball!". They wont play Creep, cos they hate it, but it seems they are using it as a forum to promote the new album, although im told they did old ones too yestesterday!
Wish i'd not had as many Goblins as i did yesterday! Would have had enough money to have maybe got a tee shirt! Such is life! Wonder what they'll play. An idea... technorati search for radiohead.. gotta be someone on there whos listed it.
Yup... looks like mostly new stuff... mind i can live with that. 25 songs on the set it says! Cor chief!! 09 maggio Google ImagesPleased now. A search on google images for Jack Rewi Angus Wairau brings up the pic of me holding Jack! Amused too, cos a search for nanabot brings up my penguin! lmfao! A search for me throws pics of... me!! Seems my image tags have finally been read! Serendipity again!Well.. its a weird world. First i have a good waffle to Countess Bartelli on msn while it buckets down with rain. I then procede to catch a bus to work rather than the train as it was wetter than a fishes wet bits outside still, and promptly forget my keys! I didnt fancy the half hour walk to the train in that!! So... I arrive in Wellygog only to bump into the afore-mentioned kendo master on my way from bus station to pub! Had i have come on the train this wouldnt have happened. Spend an enjoyable hourish plodding about the town chatting and saving money, as i would have spent it waiting for my shift to start normally.
Then.. had a good long chat with Jo about stuff past n stuff present, think she needed the ear. She scares me a little as she reminds me of me too much. She has large amounts of courage and just sometimes needs to be reminded that its ok to lean on your mates, especially when they offer it. Was glad i was there. Everyone has their daemons, some more than others, but sometimes empathy kinda outweighs sympathy purely for the fact that you know someone else has been there and come out the other side. Seems i wasnt where i was expecting to be yesterday, but i was where i was best to be.
The long and short was that i got home feeling a little drained, and slightly Speckled Hen'd, and was debating heading back out again. Through a curious set of texts this did not happen, so was at home when my sis rang telling me she wasnt feeling at all good and if needed would i be ok to bob round later!
My life is one set of curiousities after another. I think i must have chosen the road less travelled not realising that no-one else has taken this route, simply because of the complete lack of road signs, hidden hazzards, avalanches, and the occassional cowblocking the way!
On a different note, i was ummm... subjected to.... James Blunt, and then was stupid enough to read the words to the song Goodbye My Lover! I think the word "Ouch" seems reasonable...
"I am a dreamer but when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be, I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the father of your child...... Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me...... I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow. I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow".
Some things still hit home. Its not her i miss. I've found out since that she is not what i thought. I guess i miss what might have been, and am angry at myself for giving my all, for attempting to create an actuality of a dream, based on trust and what i thought was a commitment. Some would say that I did nothing wrong to believe in such things, others that i was stupid to have even considered it at all! All i know is i've been left to pick up my pieces, an entity has died, and were i to have been a touch more cynical none of this would have come about. Hollow is about right. There's a void. Again i guess its not her, so can only be the child and the idea that i might be a part of a working family again for the first time in God knows when.
Looking back, i suppose i should have learnt from my past. I threw a decent job away where i was happy, to go over to Oz and start with Glenda and Jack as a family. Admittedly the differences in circumstances are great, but the money i would have been paid for overtime due (which i lost because of mother) + normal monthly wage would have been considerable, and more than enough to have funded me a deposit for a flat. Same goes here with my compensation money. Instead it funded 4 months of Deb Tom n Me and in truth the only tangible thing i have from it is my phone, which still hasnt had its guarantee sent to me from Deb. I guess i did what i thought was right both times. Perhaps the lesson there is not to err... suck it and c, umm i mean, see, and instead just not taste anything at all! But, thinking like that would kill me. I read one that the worse kind of pain is when you are in a room full of people and yet feel so alone. I've felt that, and its true. Abject emptyness, where the world slides out of view and your left with a sense of falling... falling... until you convince yourself you ARE falling. Its psychosomatic. Which in turn means the only person who can catch you is you. If your fortunate your friends become your net, which is what i hope will be the case for Jo, and make you realise the net is there. The problem comes when you dont want to be caught.
Its that road again. Less travelled or not, if i've put the signs up myself i really should be able to read them. But, when it all comes down to it, i know if a lass comes along and, to paraphrase Dire Straites - Romeo and Juliet, says "Al... you and me babe, how about it", apart from trying to garrotte them for calling me "babe" (Oink!!!!) i'd probably say "Yeah...! Lets Dooo-ooooo it!" (name the Black Adder episode for 10 points!), which might perturb them somewhat but hey, if you can get past Dangermouse as a ring tone then i'm sure you can bypass random comedy quotes!
All this puts me in mind of the poem i wrote years ago called Love... which can be found HERE
Ok, I'm rambling. I need my music! An hour of Haygate on friday/saturday isn't enough of an outlet. 800+ mp3s n no player n cant access em anyway at the mo, lord knows how many tapes n vinyl n cd's at Mess's and all i have here is one Linkin Park album and 5 or 6 surreptitiously downloaded tracks on Phil's pc. Not quite sure he'd like Let the bodies hit the floor, or The Roof is on Fire, straight after Ibiza anthems!!
08 maggio Its too early to Blog!Its been an eventful few days. Met a few people, had a few drinks, and generally enjoyed myself, albeit on a "tighter than a knats chuff" budget! I was short on cash and somewhat fortuitously aquired an extra shift on Sunday which landed at exactly the time i needed it.
Couple of points of interest, Iain got in touch for the first time since Dads death, which was odd. And Deb decided to give me grief via a few texts, which was odder, but not odderer cos that'd be silly! Curiously she said she would be no-longer contacting me again, which exacted the reply... You seem to make a habit of terminating things you instigate.
Seems some old chap in the pub thinks i'm arrogant because of a couple of things which he's asked me, and voiced his thoughts to Sian! Bad move lol! Funny really, as i've been explaining to him the meaning of a couple of words which he's heard me use in conversation, which he point blank disagrees with. What amuses me more is that i am indeed correct with my definitions, and he is wrong, but still insists he's right! I've considered printing the definitions out, along with the definition of arrogant, and then asking him which of the two of us best fits the word arrogant in light of what the dictionary says, but im not one to be nasty lol! Ok, well maybe just a smidgin... heheheh!
Good shift with Karina! Think she started the night a little intimidated, and ended it plodding to the Haygate with me! Cant be bad! Shes sound but still hasn't done my kiwi/boomerang/st andrews pic!
Reading Neil Asher's Brass Man! Excellent again!! Along with Skinner and Gridlinked this is a classic! Any Sci Fi fans with a taste for gritty books.. go grab! Cowl is not a good example of his work, though is ok in its own right, but not really one i'd recommend!
Hmm... someones added me on Msn who i dont know! Time to investigate...
Whats good looking and incapable of completing a coherent sen... 03 maggio Lazy dayGood night last light... lol. Hmmm! A day in today i think. Tired and have Brassman to read... and as yet no other offers have been proffered. Besides im a little broke. Do me good to stay in i guess, tho on my own its not exactly much fun. Need to get this book read though, as i doubt its been reviewed much on Amazon, and besides, like the other Neil Asher books... its bloody good! lol
No pc arrived as yet for me. Wish i had a double bed.. singles n me dont get on! lol Mind you.. i do seem to manage to sleep in a single where as initially i didnt.. where as if i get in a double, sleep doesnt seem to happen!
Work Thursday Friday Satday night! Would have been nice to go out on the thursday as im told there is a rock night round the corner from me. But.. hey ho.. least its money coming in.
Stomachs growling.. food time me thinks 02 maggio None plus'dSuppose i was silly. Met someone a couple of weeks back who since then i thought i may well become close to. Kinda gone out of my way to see if it would happen. Not to worry! All distractions have been welcome since arriving from Wolves.
Still limited to 4 shifts so cash isn't exactly rolling in! Actually meeting people in Telford now though rather than just Wellington! Deb hasn't bothered to send my phone guarentee back so im still without music and cheap wap! Not good news! Need my music!
Food calls! Could eat a horse, so into thinking i'll visit the local indian! |
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